The deciding factor...duh! Look at me! THAT is not healthy, for me or for my family! For months and months I have been trying to figure out a way to work a workout into my day. Mornings just plain suck! I like my sleep and I don't get enough of it. And with Madison starting Kindergarten @ 7:45 in the mornings, I'm really gonna have to push myself to get up earlier. So, with the gods shining down before me, I overheard some ladies at work talking about walking on one of our empty floors during their lunch break. I was inquisitive with questions for them and decided to go check it out last Friday. It's PERFECT! And when I say PERFECT its perfect for a fat white girl to bounce around in private.
So Sunday night I packed my "gym" bag, tennis shoes (check), t-shirt (check), socks (check), gym pants (check), sports bra (check), tank top (check) HOLY CRAP, that's a bunch of more stuff to think about! Monday I ate my lunch, and then changed into my gym pants, and headed up to 8....I looked around and no one was there... this was my domain! I pumped up the volume on my phone and turned on some tunes! I can do this NO SWEAT! (HaHa!) Lap 9, my legs were burning, like fire! What the hell is wrong with me? I will be 35 in just a few short months! I can't even get a half mile in, before I hurt! But..... I pushed on... I did a total of 24 laps, 1 1/2 miles! I was so happy! But my body was not! I got home at 5:30 and collapsed, I was tired, my legs hurt, my body hurt! I was not happy! I went to bed that night, thinking I can still do this! Tomorrow is another day! Tuesday rolls around...I'm ready! I'm determined! My ASS hurts literally!! But its a good hurt! I change clothes, full gym outfit today, sports bra included! I'm doing this! I head up to 8, all alone again! I'm happy! I can even run if I want too, not that that's happening any time soon, but I could, and I wouldn't feel self conscience about it! At lap 24 my body said NO MORE! I decided I'm doing the extra half mile...and I DID IT! I slowed down quite a bit for the last lap to let me legs adjust, but 2 miles in 30 minutes exactly! I have never felt happier than I did at that moment....I was doing this for me! I AM doing this for me! I have so many GREAT people around me giving support when I need it the most! Even people I don't know, are encouraging! It is TIME for ME to do this!
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